Conversations with God

Kidney donation in not a highly technical or complicated surgery, so said my surgeon. He also told me that it was not as serious as removing a gall bladder. Years ago, I gladly gave up my gall bladder and I literally pray it was incinerated! Mine was a nasty piece of business and I do NOT miss it! I survived that surgery. Recovery was not to bad.

However, all surgeries are serious and not to be undertaken without thought. All wise people must be prepared not only for complications during surgery, but afterwards as well.  All wise people must be prepared for death! It is a real possibility. I comforted myself with the knowledge that the hospital where the transplant would take place, had never lost a patient. Being the planner I am, I still gave much thought to life and death. Not in a morbid way, just a realistic acceptance of an unknowable outcome. I wanted to prepare myself physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. I took great care to examine each dimension honestly and so should you, if you make a decision to donate an organ. I wanted to be prepared and I wanted those left behind to be prepared! I wanted them to know how much I love them! This is very important. I wrote my husband, my daughters and each of my grandchildren a letter and mailed just before surgery. I will talk more about this later. But, prepare yourself to do this. It is hard!

Spiritual preparation was not mystical nor was it a rote prayer from some book. It was just an honest prayer, which is nothing more than conversation with God. I believe and know from God’s word that He is a loving God, not vengeful. He forgives sins and He forgave mine. He can forgive yours as well. In fact, I believe He longs to forgive us! We are His creation and He loves us! It is really not important what church I go to. God is into individuals, not buildings. So I prepared with much prayer. I prepared with much conversation with God! Last, I often felt a nudge to evaluate what I really believe about God. I often read the Apostle’s Creed*! I often read it out loud to my dog:) It is my solid foundation and it very succinctly sums up truth about God. Forget all the do’s and don’ts of perceived Christianity and get down to the basics. I hope you will!


*Apostle’s Creed:

  • I believe in God, the Father Almighty, Maker of heaven and earth.
  • I believe in Jesus Christ, his only Son, our Lord, who was conceived by the Holy Spirit; born of the virgin Mary; suffered under Pontius Pilate; was crucified, dead and buried;  he descended into hell;
  • The third day he rose again from the dead;
  • He ascended into heaven, and is sitting at the right hand of God the Father Almighty;
  • From there He shall come to judge the living and the dead.
  • I believe in the Holy Spirit;
  • The holy Christian church;
  • The communion of the saints;
  • The forgiveness of sins;
  • The resurrection of the body;
  • and the life everlasting.         Amen  (Taken from Luther’s Catechism)